Day 14 Chemo 1. Wed. 08/02/2017 10:55PM
Today is a very relaxing day. I woke up late. Had a few minutes of melancholy when I saw the picture of my son Zacchaeus. This was just triggered by the school assignment required. He was asked to bring pictures of him while he was a baby and picture of him taken recently.
As I gazed upon his pictures as a baby, I got teary eyed remembering and missing those moments when I had to place him on my bosom until he goes to sleep. I missed those big laughs every time we do a pick a boo on him. I missed hugging him in my arms. Being a big baby as he was, I missed those times I had to bath him in a big basin.
So many things to miss for, like changing his diapers when he peed and pooed, and even the smell of his pee which lingered so vivid in my memory being so foul and pungent, since he wasn't a breastfed baby. I really wanted to breastfeed him but there wasn't that much milk coming off from me. Thus, I kind of startled him on his first 3 days of life. After 2 hours of breastfeeding at that time, he would always end up still hungry with my breast coming short of supply forcing me to put him on a milk formula which was really expensive costing P5,000 to P6,000 per month just on milk formula alone. Despite the financial hurdle, we were able to get by. It was God's daily miracle to us.
In the clinic there were not much patients so at exactly 2:00 PM I left, and went home early to prepare the incoming birthday of my son. Upon arriving home I got my hands tied up right away in tidying up our bedroom and bringing some of its clatters in the middle of the house. The move was to create ample of space in the bedroom since my birthday present for my little one tomorrow would be a double deck bed which is kind of huge. The present is going to be a surprise for him and hopefully, it would be delivered as per my instruction while Zac would still be in school, so that when he comes home the bed would be in the room already. We will see if there will be revision on this.
Things have gone quite so well so far and much more with my daily ritual with juices for my daily healing diet. I found 2 delicious combination that I was able to create for my watermelon juice: (1) watermelon with papaya which I concocted and drank last night and (2) watermelon with mango which I prepared and drank tonight. Superb combination!!!
Have to go to sleep 'coz it's kind of late and I need to get up early to attend the Holy Mass in the morning with my son. Hope he won't give us a hard time in waking him up, hi...hi..hi.
I got to go. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. PEACE, PEACE, PEACE. Good night.
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