Day 15 Chemo 4. Thu 10/05/2017 'Summary of my 4 Chemo Sessions"

Day 15 Chemo 4. Thu 10/05/2017 03:55 PM

I missed once again making my journal for yesterday’s date. So I have the entry done today instead. Life is indeed a series of thousands of tiny miracles. Such miracles came in the form of having the Lord bringing in more patients to me. Indeed, yesterday was packed with patients in the clinic. Surprisingly, heaven was also sustaining me with all the strength that I need, in spite of having a large number of patients I wasn’t tired at all.

I left the clinic at almost 4pm and to my delight there was no traffic on my way home. I had the chance to enjoy my snacks as I arrived home early then got some time to sleep before dinner. Yet, when they woke me up for dinner I still felt sleepy. Eunice called up and so did Jerome, but still felt heavy-eyed so I told them that I will call them back, however I wasn’t able to do so. I didn’t know why I was so drowsy that time. I was not able to write on my journal, not able to have my dinner and worst of all, not able to take my meds. I was only able to remember taking my meds when I woke up in the middle of night and felt my son Zac, who slept beside me was a little feverish and restless. Though a bit asleep on one foot, I got up and took his temperature that reads 37.8 degrees Celsius revealing he had a low grade fever. After letting him take a paracetamol syrup that was the time I took my medicine too. Then the night went on with Zac and I getting a good slumber.

As the day unfolded again with me back to clinic, the Lord always put an order to everything. When heavy days come with lots of patients he would also grant me days of relaxing days, still with good number of patients yet enough for me to give a breather. Such breather usually propels me to extend my energy in the household chores at home. Thus, coming back from work with calmer tempo I had ample time doing my typical tidying and arranging of stuff in the house which I haven’t done for quite sometimes. It gave me more time too, to scribble entries on my journal which my Guardian Angel asked me, to finish as my homework, especially the intended Summary of my 4 Chemo Sessions.

And here comes now the Summary of my 4 Chemo Sessions:

Among the 4 chemo sessions, the worst was the 3rd cycle. The feeling was so unimaginable to the point that even the  taste of water was not accepted by my tongue. I couldn't even drink a tiny drop of water. I was always vomiting and nauseous. During this cycle my creatinine level was slightly elevated so I was instructed to consume 3 liters of water a day but I wasn’t able to. I was basically thriving with gatorade and non-dairy soya milk. I could not tolerate solid foods.

I also had a very difficult time on my 1st cycle, I had a gastritis (inflammation of the stomach lining) where only antacids and non-dairy soya milk made temporary relief. I think I drunk a minimum of 2 liters of non-dairy soya milk during this time with 2 bouts of vomiting.

My 2nd cycle was less difficult with no vomiting at all. However the gastritis was still there making it hard for me to feel comfortable because it occurred every 2 to 3 hours. Luckily I knew how to relieve it by drinking soya, doing the (fetal) curling position, and aside from taking antacids I also tried  to rest and sleep as much as I could.

Some of the other discomforts of Chemotherapy that I felt and experienced were..

1. Sweating profusely during sleeping time even with air conditioning in my room. I had tenderness, numbness and pain upon pressure on my left arm where my (intravenous) IV line was inserted for every chemotherapy, that’s why I didn’t wear any wrist watch anymore.
2. My nail beds were all black , but the nail beds of my fingers were more severe than my toe nails.
3. My head was glimmering and shining due to baldness which was natural as hair loss is a well-known side effect of Chemotherapy.  
4. I also had a sensitive tooth on my right upper third molar. I went to a dentist yesterday but she could not detect any obvious defect on my tooth. I suggested to have it extracted but she refused by asking me to get a clearance from my oncologist. So the  oncologist suggested to have my Pro-time checked first, and if the result is normal I can proceed to have a tooth extraction. Until today, I’m still observing if the discomfort will progress after taking one tablet of analgesic since yesterday. So far, so good. I felt no pain nor discomfort, that’s why for the meantime I decided to defer the laboratory test and tooth extraction.

Every cloud has a silver lining. I believed I was able to survive all my sessions with the conglomeration of forces at work.

The 3 things that sustained me during my Chemotherapy Ordeal.

1. Primarily through PRAYERS. My personal prayers, my guardian angel’s prayer together with his family, my family and friend’s prayers were big help in my healing journey. There is tremendous energy in prayer that the seemingly impossible would always come out possible.
2. Second, it was being optimistic. My positive attitude towards surviving to a 100 years supported by the daily AM/PM meditation that helped me go through with whatever negativity I may encounter. There were days when I had to let go of tears and get my voice to rack pitch high due to immense heartache felt, yet I never let myself succumb to the whiles and vicious pangs of stresses and problems. But by just remembering that I am love and I come from a place of Gratitude, Love and Peace I can recreate the same Love, Peace and Gratitude from within.
3. Third, the Love and Care of each and everyone of you who helped and supported me through my difficult times. I do not want that all the support you had given me will go to waste. I will keep on fighting and stay strong inspite and despite all the trials that will come in my journey of healing.

“Thank you, Thank you to all of you. Thank you God. God bless us all and Good health to all of us.

See you all in my 100th birthday.”